stupidity of olivia

stupidity of oliviaShare Today at 23:59 | Edit Note | Delete Sigh...on nights...watching You've got mail. Xmas eve. Wishing I am Meg Ryan. How can you be 40 odd years old and still be so DAMN cute! The world is not fair! I just love the way her lips turn down wards when she smiles but the corners of her mouth turns upwards. It's so damn cute! You know I still hope I will own a bookshop one day. Damn it, I might just shut the whole shop down so I can read all the books myself! May be I'll meet my Tom Hanks there too?! Oh fuck this Hollywood schmooze. I'd probably just end up with a shop like on Blackbooks. Wahahaha... For now, the closest I'll come to is a Meg hair cut :-( For the record, by the way, I think Nicole Kidman is the prettiest actress nowadays. Although I think Irene Jacob and Juliet Binoche are the most elegant. Of course, NO ONE comes close to Audrey Hepburn, EVER! Made it to church tonight. Finally! I just don't have that enthusiasm to church any more. ALthough I think I"m still very certain that God exists. I find no better reason for life than Christ. However, I also cannot shake that Seneca philosophy because the world is not fair, it isn't "good". Eexpect the worst, lest you be disappointment by expectations. Met a professor for brunch the other day. Given that we've never actually met before, we got on rather well. But he said something that impressed on my memory. Although I doubt he remembers saying it, although I suspect he doesn't even remember me now. Anyway, he said "there is so much to do, so much to see". I wish I can have the same enthusiasm about life. May be it's because he lives in New York. May be it's that sense of action that city life has, that fuels his optomism. You know, for a while, I even considered doing USMLE because of that. Ah, the stupidity of Olivia.