incredible women

Yeah! Got my computer back! But, it has NOT been fixed. BUT the original problem seem to have gone. MAGIC! Gosh, didn't blog in the weekend because of Dell getting sick :-) and they took 5 #$^%&^* days to get the part, and STILL it hasn't been fixed...so really, I would not recommend Dell ever again! It's so nice to have a holiday today. Slept in until 9. It's such a luxury when I usually get up at 5 in the flipping morning...ok ok, it's self inflicted because of my obsession with going to the gym. I realised that is the only place I can legitimately day dream. I can imagine myself as the lead singer in Muse, fanatically jumping around with the base guitar, with an evil smile singing Apocalypse Please. I go into Narcissistic-Histrionic Land imaging myself as Christina Aguilera or Jennifer Lopez gyrating on the stage or dancing in suggestive moves to certain members of the audience - usually certain people I have a crush on at the time :-P I know, it's embarassing. Surely at the age of 31, I should have migrated out of LalaLand and into the more depressing United Kingdom of Reality. Anyway, that is why I am so obsessed with going to the gym. Met up with another Christian woman in the weekend. It never ceases to amaze me how some people can be so enthusiastic, so full of optomism all the time. I suppose I like her also because she and her friend seem to see my achievements rather than failures. They are in a different field of work also made it less likely I felt competitive in any way. It is also probably no coincidence that they are both generous size so I don't feel threatened. I find it sad that is the probable underlying reason. It just reflects how I still have this need to "step down" on others to feel myself valued. Yet, it was a good experience. One of the woman had lived in Africa, she gave up law to work because of poverty. The other woman studied film. She worked in such colourful places including massage parlours that I realised they are SUCH UNIQUE people! They are experiences that I would most likely NOT be able to survive! As a result, I have a deep sense of respect for them. It strengthened my previous realisation. I want to define myself, and others, by character, rather than awards or appearance. I like it! I can respect them even though, if not because of, our differences. God has different paths for me from them. It does not make them or me, more or less valuable. I'm glad I'm learning this. I'm thankful to God for guiding me this way.